Perros-Guirec is situated in North Britany. It os a seaside resort, with sandy beaches and water and beach sports. It is known for its pink granite rocks which have been sculpted by the sea into varied shapes and patterns.
My church introduced Covid pass in september and it was the reason why I was not able to join it. Covid pass discriminate poeple. And I felt rejected not accepted. The pastor was afraid to create a cluster like in Mulhouse in the Church Porte Ouverte in february 2020 then he is very zealous to apply restriction and the covid law.
And I decided to search for a church that could accept me. An internet search and I started to create a list of church that accept all people. Me included.
The first Church was Gospel Center.
This service take place in a bar in an activity area between company that rececycle trash and other company that sell solar panel.
My first impression when I arrive in this room was the music. The sound is very loud and it is only preparation. The mixage table is impressive with 4 screens.
It looks like a church show. But why not. I remember in the past I heard criticism about such church that do too much with emotion or show. But why not.
The perfect church does not exists and I have to focus on the positive part. Full of young people, life, worship and a preaching with basic teaching. The speakers talk about the potter and the jar with clay. We must be teachable and flexible. God is the potter and we are the pot.
I thought that censorship was past but no!!! Censorship is for today. We are not free to say what we want.
Before internet (before 2000) censorship was much more light. But now the scope of what we can express is more and more narrow.
I am candid. I think that we can share ideas opinion and think freely. But if you share information that someone disagree you hurt him and he can block you.
On day I receive a message on the Fediverse
Usualy when I receive such message it is conter productive. I am very sensitive with blocking myself or baning. It hurts me so much. That I cry out much more louder. It is like we reject myself without earing.
Now I should show you the post.
Kirche.social as the name means is a social church. Church means christian. Kirche social will ban me because I ask for prayer.
If they consider GAB as theire enemy. Read what Jesus said about enemies in Mathiew 5:44
43“You have heard the law that says, ‘Love your neighbor’ and hate your enemy. 44But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you!
Gab is not federated anymore then I was thinking that it was nice to share this message. Andrew just ask for our prayer. It is a rememder. Of course it is also kind of advertising message. I could cut the upgrade things.
Gab is very controversial site. Lot of people don’t like it. They say they are Nazi, Faschist, racists, homophobes, sexists and I could add many bad words islamophobes (no this is a french word).
I am not the best wise people. I have my own weekness, I am sure past injuries from my childhood is maybe not totaly cured. Sometimes I need to express myself. I try my best to be understood. Sometimes it does not work. Sometimes it is even worst. More I try less I am understood.
That is why more we try to say do not say this do not say that. That when we block me I try to repeat more.
Why blocking is not the solution. If you block me of even ban me. I can created other account. You will not detect quickly it is me. You hurt me and the problem is not solved.
What is the solution. Dialog and empathy. If you try to understand me I will be much more ready to understand you. Probably what I say hurt you. Then if I understand that. It will be much more easy to be carefull.
Censorship will transform in mutual respect.
Censorship is very violent and it does not solve the problem. We need to understand each other.
Is it the wrong question after few days of silence in communication ? Maybe it was the wrong question.
I never mind you can be enemy
What did I bad for you?
My friends were right when they say Do not contact with Europeans all they are very bad people
When I receive such response, I realised that something was strange or wrong. After a friendship relationships sudenly it is like my interlocutor could be hurt or maybe received something wronly. Maybe this message was not for me. Sometime we can make a mistake and send a message to the wrong person.
How to react ?
I reply
You are not my enemy what a strange idea
You did not anything bad for me
Why do you have this strange idea ? I am surprised
Does will help this misunderstanding ? Why communication is always so complicated ? I try to be always as honest as possible. But maybe this is a wrong strategy. My problem is that I am too sensible. Too emotive. …
I try to communicate like before like if that message was not for me because not logic not realistic.
I do not want to contact with you
What to say ? Maybe the best would be to stop at least for a while but I write something more and maybe too much
I notice that something is wrong but I don’t understand what. You don’t want to contact me. That makes me sad.
Reply
I notice you are sad because I am alive still. Do not contact me anymore. I contact with normal and polite people only
I will block you
Logic was not here. Only emotions. Probably I did mistake but how to know it ? Starting a conversation with other word like Hello how are you could be dangerous. Starting with are you alive is maybe not good variation. This is only hypothesis.
Learning from our mistake. But if we know what is our mistake it is ok. But in this case I don’t know.
I would like to have from an external person their though or advice.
Before blocking someone. Try to explain let the other express. Because it give you a huge hurt that is unexpressable.
Few days ago, I visited my father at hospital. Maybe it was the last time I saw him. And at the way back, decided to take the tunnel to cross Vosges mountain instead of the smal road pass.
I didn’t realised that I drove too fast 85 instead of 70. There was no other cars, no Trucks and the road was straight. Sundenly a flash. I was driving a car with a swiss number in France. Maybe I will not receive the fine.
Today I receive it. I have to pay 45€ if I don’t pay immediatly that will be 135€.
Communication between european countries and Switzerland is now automatic.
This weekend I was visiting my father. After a long way of driving of few hours I could find the hospital. He explained me what happend. , Suddently he could not stand. So he was at the doctor and the doctor call ambulance. I saw my father who cannot go out his bed with thing that help him to breath with oxygen. It was hard to see him like that. You know I am leaving far away from my family.
Maybe it was the last time I saw him. He was so tired and changed… Memory come back … Emotion with the feeling that I didn’t say what I should. What will you say if you see someone for the last time. It is not easy.
Didn’t you remark that december is a month full of activities. When Chrismas is approaching, that remember that we MUST celebrate Chrismas. Society tells us that we must buy gifts and more. We must decorate and make christmas tree. December is a busy month too in many companies. For shops that is THE month of the year. Yes December is a month of consumption
Then this social pressure of Christmas could become stressing
Poverty
Some people have financial difficulties or have not enough monney. We can call them poor people. They are frustrated because they cannot buy what they want.
Ecology
If you have ecology fiber, you cannnot buy and consum but you want to protect environment. You just want to buy only what you need and not more. If you have a device, you don’t need to replace it with the new one if it still works well. We must save energy and life only with the minimum.
Lonelyness
If you are lonely or if you have crisis in your family, Christmas could be a hard time because we MUST be with our family and we MUST be happy. This month remind us our lonelyness.
If you are poor, ecologist or lonely, december month is a hard month.
Maybe christians could feel better in this special season. Maybe not because Christmas is not a biblical celebration. And today Jesus is not at the center of Christmas as it could be.Jesus born is only a story a myth.
So what can we do during this period ? Maybe walking in the snow far away from shopping center and put our stress away.
Even if you don’t like Christmas : Merry Christmas